I've been praying about the "funk" I've been in (for over three years).

My husband thinks we're still reeling from the big move and all the headache that came with it--but can that be? Can a dark cloud loom that long over an upset? I just know I have to push myself to to get it all done, (and my body is being resistant)! Each day I seem to lag a little farther behind.

If the day were only longer--but I know that's not the answer.

I would like to close my eyes until spring--winter is coming too soon!

My second course of studies came yesterday with much material to learn. I'm trying not to look at the whole nine yards but see only a chapter at a time. My plate is so full with the unusual the everyday things seem to be pushing me over the edge.

Looking ahead can be overwhelming--but looking back is where the reward will be.

I had a wonderful weekend. I am rested and ready to take on another week (at work).

I have had to adjust my vegan lifestyle, as I'm experiencing a lot of hair loss. I have been told to add more protein to my diet--Egg Beaters. It is rich in protein with no fat and is so versatile. I hope it solves the problem quickly. (I am at the sixty-pound mark and have never felt better otherwise.)

Now I have to adjust my work attitude!

I have come to the end of another workweek. I push my way through these five days to reach the weekend.

My desire is to quit (now), but that can't happen yet--humanly speaking anyway. (I struggle with having trust and being fiscally responsible.) I will keep walking forward (toward a less-restricted employment) unless God redirects my path. My prayer is my new plan is God's plan for me.

God has a purpose in all of this. I want to embrace that purpose.

Rush! Rush! Rush! That is how my morning has been!

It doesn't pay to sleep in for an hour. To have a leisure morning, I need to be up by 5:00. My body was still reeling from the two late nights it had, and this morning it just didn't respond well to reason! There are days like that--which makes life the lesson book where we learn all the wonderful ways God has put us together.

My awe for my Heavenly Father, my love for the Lord Jesus Christ, and my appreciation for the Spirit who dwells within me grow daily.

My end-of -the-day battle is still mental fatigue. (It spills over and makes me feel physically tired as well.)

I know others work forty hours (outside the home) and still enjoy an active life. When I enter "my haven" at the end of the work day, all I want to do is sit. That is not good. In spite of my lethargy, God continues to nudge me. One (of several) thing(s) God has laid on my heart is a card ministry, especially to the widows.

Jesus prayed to His Father that His joy would be in us. His joy came from "doing the will of His Father who sent Him." Obedience is a good thing!

(More computer problems!)

I was happily surprised to see (from the finished work schedule) I have the weekend off again. I hope that means I know longer have to work them and can go back to my old schedule of Monday through Friday. God is in control of my time at work, though. He has removed my heart from it; now I wait on Him for His directing.

I love living this way--totally dependent on God. My ways usually sound good, but they are very temporal (and short-sighted). God has a marvelous plan for my life; I don't want to miss it!